Over the last 31 years, I've come across many different types of people. I've seen a lot of things, good and bad. I've had a lot of life experiences, sometimes unbearable, but oftentimes so wonderfully amazing I know I'll never forget it.
I've always felt the same though. Numb. Tired. Sad. Always expecting the worst from everyone and everything. It was really stressful and I didn't even know I was in this "period" while going through it. Only today do I see how bad things were. Then, I just rolled with the punches.
It's sad to say that I've felt sad and alone most of my life. I never really know why I felt so lost or empty but I did. I never admitted it, always in denial, especially to myself. One day a really old memory came flooding back, it felt like I was reliving that moment but as an invisible bystander. I saw little Dany giving her dad a card she'd made herself. I remember the card and I said something along the lines of "I'm so glad you're my dad/parent. I would never want anyone else to be my dad..." or blah blah blah. Something like; I'm glad you're my dad and I'd never want anyone else. Looking back, lol, no. BUUUUUUT this is about my dads reaction to this card. He looked nervous and confused, like he was trying to figure out if I knew what he knew. He said "Why did you say this?? Did someone say something to you??" As a child I didn't understand why he was reacting this way (to my totally innocent card) but as an adult; everything has gotten so clear, and as much as it pains me, I'm so glad I'm finally here.
How's my grammar? Totally atrocious?? Doesn't surprise me one bit! I've been a stay-at-home mom for a really long time!
Anyway! Today, I've come to a place of self-discovery. I feel like I've become a new person and I'm not the same Dany that I was even last year. My brain feels clearer, like that thick damp fog has finally lifted. I can look back at my past and think "damn, that was really F***** up but here's the lesson I learned..." instead of "WHAT THE F*** IS WRONG WITH ME?!" yah know??
So I'd like to reintroduce myself, I'd like to truly embrace and explore my hobbies, and I plan on F****** kicking ass at this whole "life" thing! I've learned a lot, I've grown a lot, aaaand I really like to talk so that's why I'm here. If you're down to clown and like reading a caffeine-addicts opinions on the drama in GIRL WORLD (if you don't know, don't ask, trust!), I think you've come to the right place and we'll be great pals!
Currently, I'm a mom to two growing gals and our life has changed SO MUCH! I'm adjusting to everything as quickly as I can but I must admit, it's been a tiny bit rough here and there. My plan is to post weekly, start making YT videos for those of us that enjoy long form content, and also keep making printables and stuff. Please join me as I talk into the void but assume there's always someone there, reading everything! :D
I'm Dany.
It's nice to meet you!
;)
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